Excerpts from the Bible and All the Angels Stood by Laura J. Marshall.
Sometimes he just knew if something wasn’t right with a person. It could be a feeling or a physical manifestation. Rush had this. He didn’t always see the demons. Sometimes he just felt them there over a person or place. Some clung, some hovered, some possessed. Rush didn’t feel adequate or up to the challenge. He continually fed his faith the Word of God. He tried to remind himself the battle was the Lord’s and all he could do was pray and intercede.
In the face of fear and doubt, he looked to Jesus. He couldn’t save anyone or make someone care. How do you help someone move from ‘take my life’ to ‘Lord, preserve me’?
And how did his heart get tangled up. “The Fixer” couldn’t fix this. Only God could and right now, Rush needed Him to save them both. Staci from the clutches of the enemy and Rush from the fear of caring.
God. What of God? Where was He? This Jesus they had talked about at Grace Youth. Wow, they were really gung-ho about Him.
I laughed aloud but suddenly sobered. The wind picked up and blew my hair across my eyes. I heard a whisper. Was it my name on the wind?
“If you’re real, you better prove it soon. You’re almost too late.” I hung there suspended, almost expecting an answer. I shouted again to the clear blue sky, to the metal and the hot gravel at my hands, “Show me. Show me, Jesus, how life with you could be different.”
Tears slid down my cheeks. I could literally feel my heart ache in its cavity. I raised my hands as I had seen some of the kids do when the music played and implored silently, Prove me wrong. Prove me wrong.
Staci cut her parmesan in half and slid the larger portion onto his plate. He followed suit and gave her half of his meal.
He grinned at her. “Thank you.”
Rush continued, “Witnessing is the great commission from Jesus. He says in the Bible to make disciples of all nations; to teach how He is the Lamb of God for the forgiveness of sins, a sacrifice for you and me, if we repent and turn to Him as our savior.”
Rush hoped he wasn’t overwhelming her. He didn’t want to preach at her, but neither did he want to leave her wondering about God or what his own faith was all about. It was too important to him to leave for another day. This was the only one promised them, the here and now.
“I see. I heard Mike, your youth pastor, talking about that on Wednesday. I guess – I guess it’s all about believing?”
“Most of it…faith, yes. It’s not all emotions though. It’s about getting to know Jesus and the Father by reading the Bible and through prayer. He does reveal Himself to those who earnestly seek him.” Rush chose that moment to take his first bite of chicken Marsala. He closed his eyes then opened them, the sweet salty taste of the brown sauce over mushrooms and chicken had taken him by surprise. “This is delicious.”
Staci grinned, looking pleased that he liked it as much as she did. “I know, right?”
For now, we can only see a dim and blurry picture of things, as when we stare into polished metal. I realize that everything I know is only part of the big picture. But one day, when Jesus arrives, we will see clearly, face-to-face. In that day, I will fully know just as I have been wholly known by God. But now faith, hope, and love remain; these three virtues must characterize our lives. The greatest of these is love.
He said to her,“Woman, where are those accusers of yours? Has no one condemned you?”
She said, “No one, Lord.”
And Jesus said to her, “Neither do I condemn you; go and sin no more.”
Then Jesus spoke to them again, saying, “I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.”